Transformation

She was beautiful!!! She was absolutely beautiful!!! A monarch butterfly flew around me several times and landed at my feet. I immediately knew she was there for me. I watched her breathe ever so gently as she was laying at my feet. I spoke to her in a lovingly soft voice and said, “Why are you here little one?” “Why are you here?” I knew it was an angel but what kind of angel? I just knew it. She graciously moved her wings up and down ever so slowly while she rested. Twenty minutes later she then rose up to my face and flew around me several times again and left. I said my good byes and I started to cry. I immediately knew that she came to me for a purpose but I had no idea what that purpose was for. The spiritual meaning of the monarch butterfly means transformation. I was unaware of what this meaning had in store for me. It was reminding me to embrace change and move forward.

I finally started coming out of my hibernation from COVID at this time because I now needed to go back to work and get on with my life. I was trying to find a job that did not require hands on nursing care. I wanted to be finished with that part of my life. COVID took a toll on me mentally. I had taken care of the sick and dying my entire life and I was just spent. I knew that it would be challenging to find a nursing job that did not require hands on care and we were not free from the pandemic yet. As I was searching for nursing jobs on line trying to find my salvation I came across this one job that would not require hands on care. I was very reluctant to apply for it because I had never worked in this area of nursing before. The one thing I have to say here is that I had the knowledge and over 30 years of hands on care experience. I was still unsure to apply for this job for the fear of rejection. It literally took me several days to build my self up to apply for this job. It kept coming up in the search. As I sat there and pondered on what to do and where my continued nursing journey was going the voice again like telepathy said, “Press the button.” So I did, I pressed the button. Two days later I received a phone call for an interview for the job I was afraid to apply for because I thought I was not good enough for it. This call came on a Thursday and my interview was on a Monday.

Now I will back track to bring you up to speed without confusion. The monarch butterfly came to me on the Saturday before the phone call for the interview. The phone call for the interview was on Thursday after the butterfly came to me. The initial interview followed on Monday.

Monday morning came and as I was preparing for the interview I realized I had no jitters. What was that all about? Why was I not nervous? I could not explain it. As I was driving on the highway to my destination the voice again like telepathy said, “Look to the right.” I looked to my right and directly outside of my passenger side window there were two crosses. I immediately said out loud, “Oh my God, I am going to get this job!” I had my interview and I went home. Two days later I received the phone call for the job offering. I graciously and humbly accepted.

My Studio plans were coming to fruition at this time. I continued to paint everyday in my dining room waiting for the big day to move in. I now had another visitor. It was angel number 4.

Angel Number 4

I started to see number 4 everywhere. It always appeared as a single digit. There was nothing before it and nothing after it. It was just there. It was plain as day right in front of my face. I could not escape number 4. Everywhere I looked and everywhere I went there was 4. I started to see 4 come out in my paintings. Angel number 4 represents balance and stability. It also was reminding me that I was safe.